I had seen a visual of me sitting next to the bed side of a woman, who I had come to know, as she passed on from her body.  When we originally met there was an instant connection. We both felt it. At her funeral, one by one all of her close friends and family shared with me that she described it to them as, she and I were kindred spirits. Although we had experienced a connection, the rest of her family did not feel the same way about me.

Within hours our first introduction, I found myself listening to her unload all of the experiences in her life that she had been disappointed with and in her words, “hurt by.” The emotions and tears that accompanied the stories were intense and I remember being very aware of the importance of holding the space of love and presence. It’s not unusual at all for me to know someone’s life history with in the first few minutes of meeting them, even if it’s a perfect stranger. Sometimes they’ll even comment, “I don’t know why I just told you all of that!” This experience however felt different to me, like something much bigger was going on.

Within a few months of us meeting, she was diagnosed with cancer and became very ill very quickly. I have never felt such a strong desire to see someone again before they passed on; I found it to be really odd. I had the sense that a part of me was dying and I really wanted to speak with her before she left. Not something that I had ever experienced before.

There were of a couple of her family members who expressed a great dislike for me and as a result I was actually held at bay. As I touched in with my guidance pertaining to the situation, I was shown the visual of me sitting next to her as she was lying in a hospital bed already unconscious. Even though I knew that everything was as it was going to be and it was in divine order, it took a lot of work on my part to interact with my emotions. I really wanted to just go to her while she was still conscious and still able to speak. I could have gone any way; anyone was allowed to visit at the hospice center she was in. I chose to honor the family and stay away.

As the end came near, there was one family member who knew the importance of me being there and finally stepped away from the drama occurring with the family to bring me in. As I was shown, she was unconscious by the time I got there. She actually took, what they thought would be, her last breath with those who had held me at bay, as I was on my way there. It wasn’t her last breath.

I spent time with other family members as well as her, saying what I wanted to say from my heart. I was very grateful for the short time we did get to share with each other. In that time before she became ill we shared a life time, it was a total of 9 days over the course of 4 months. In those nine days she shared with me all of her favorite things and all of her least favorite things, as well as many memories. Interesting enough, I knew more about her than some of her own family. What a gift.

I offered to spend the night in the room with her along with another family member so that her husband could get some rest. The tv was on in the room and I glanced back and forth from it watching her breath as her chest rose up and down. The nurse came in and I assisted as she bathed her. I asked if they had an idea of how much longer it would be and was told that it could be an hour or 2 to 3 days. As the evening moved forward I began to notice her breath slow down and become sporadic.

All of the sudden I felt my heart open like I have never felt it before, I call it a “heart gasm.” I experience it frequently, the area of my heart chakra begins to feel warm and tickly and expansive, filled with love unlike you have felt before. I shared with the other family member who was there that I had never felt anything like this before. My heart felt to be as large as a city, maybe even a state. At the same time I started to see elliptical beautifully colored bright orbs all over the room, in every color of the rainbow but more vibrant. I shared that out loud as well and was mesmerized as I maintained presence with the experience. All of the sudden a light right outside the door popped on and I looked over at the kindred spirit lying in the bed and watched her take her last breath. I glanced at the clock and noted the time, 11:44 pm and turned to her family member to let him know what happened so that he could go and get the doctor. Our world is much more than it seems!

I had felt and seen what I would describe as an Angelic doorway open to another world, what we refer to as Heaven perhaps. All I know is what I experienced and it was beautiful in many ways. I sat in the room with her now lifeless body contemplating. So many different thoughts and emotions passed through my awareness about the whole situation, what was the meaning of all of this. There seemed to be a river of information but no real answer to that question. What I knew, was what I had experienced through all of it and that I didn’t know what it was all about. What I did know was that I showed up and did the best that I could do with what I did know!

Thank you for sharing in another present moment experience of our Beautiful world.

Love and Light Susan Newton

www.susanfaynewton.com